Computers ...

My laptop has been on the fritz for a while so I made sure (or so I thought) to copy my "Nursing School" folder that has EVERYTHING from 1st quarter until now that I have worked on, onto my external hard drive. When I went to pull up my research paper that I have worked on for 4 quarters to edit for the (hopefully) last time it wasn't there!!!! My laptop is so messed up now that I can't get anything off of it, can't email it, can't print it and can only view it in windows "compatibility mode". I nearly burst into tears; I was sickened by the thought that at 1130 at night I would have to re-type all 8 pages ... I am barely better than a hunt-and-peck typist, it would take me all night to retype all 2,036 words! Fortunately my husband eventually was able to get a copy of the file off of the laptop so I could edit it on our desktop and print it for class tomorrow. I still have so much more on there that I want to get off, what a mess.   

Crazy!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH ... yeah that’s about all I have the energy for this quarter. I am literally surviving week by week! I am barely able to keep up and all other activities have fallen to the wayside!

I feel like the little engine that could " I think I can, I think I can, I think I can"!

Oye!

Trust in God ...

I am wracked with anxiety over nursing school. I made my clinical instructor mad and now my life is beyond stressful. I can barely stand my current level of stress in  this situation! I am so overwhelmed! I just want to graduate and become a good nurse. I am over this nursing program and the poor quality of education I have been subjected to for almost 2 years. The first two quarters of the program was great, hard work but very educational. The 3rd quarter had a yin & yang feel with theory being hellish and clinicals being so much fun. When we got to 4th quarter we thought that it couldn’t get any worse than this (clinicals were still fun) with the low quality of non-leaning that was going on but … holy horse poopy … hold the phone …. 5th quarter has blown it all out of the park. AHHHHHHH, I just want to get this program over with!

Mental Health

It takes a special nurse to work in most specialty fields. I believe the same is true in mental health nursing. I have my clinicals for a few days at Western State Mental Hospital this quarter and it has been interesting. It is truly a complicated and difficult thing when someone is mentally ill.

UGH!

I am sooooo over nursing school. This quarter feels like a total waste of time! I am looking forward to my preceptorship next quarter. I am requesting ICU, ER or PICU. All emergent care settings ... floor nursing is sheer torture to me so I hope I get some sort of emergency care.

Summer ... summer time!

Ah, I love being on summer brake! I have been CRAZY busy! I have been working a lot of hours at the hospital, with the military, traveling a lot as well as working on our fertility treatment stuff. Busy, busy! Summer break is already half way over. Just a few more weeks of freedom and then its back to late nights of studying! :o)

Fun Stuff

I got to do my first NG tube the other day at work! (For non-medical people it is a tube that goes in your nose, down to your stomach to relieve pressure and etc.) I had done an oral tube on an intabated pt (patient) a few days prior and that was crazy easy. The lady I put the NG down "wanted" the tube because her stomach hurt so bad. At first she pulled her head back and up but then she cooperated and it went down so smoothly! It was a great first experience on an actual person. :o)